From the day I born till now, i faced many challenges, sorrowful, heart breaking, depressed, challenging even when i reached my breaking point. I almost killed myself about 3 times when i was 19 or 20 but whats holding me back is the love ones around me. but something that bothering me now is the wrong choice i have chose. but just that I don't want to tell anyone about the choices i chose wrongly doesn't mean that I am OK with it. Even when sometimes I really wished i wasn't born in this family. Now theres other than just one family that i doesn't want to be in it. The family members haven't cared the other part of me, they always scold me stupid and need me to help them almost everything. They really treat me bad even there were three person that I really hate but things have to be this way... I can't change the facts but to face it now. Only thing I can do is to gave up the other part of me and these three person will long gone forever. I just wished the three of them never been exist at all in this world. It's only been three months and I can't resist it any longer, I just want a new life not this three months old life, not the one i'm having. I just wished I live in a fantasy world of my own. No worries, No sorrows. But I still remember the worst time I had for my life is when I was 8 till 12. it was the most depressing ever time i had. another one is the 2 months i had in my 18. and now.... the 1st month of my new life is awesome, 2nd is sweet but 3rd month is bitter when i get to know the new family I had.... Life really sucks... but I always need to stay strong because I know one day this three person will be gone forever and my new life will be free forever.
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